bawling my eyes out, sobbing,

"I'm not as brave as I used to be,"

"Then you're getting, wiser,"

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For the rest of my life I will be able to cry upon demand, that wasn't a thing before,

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Dax was in our faces, running our races, licking our laces, keeping our paces,

I guess tomorrow will be the better test of my transition anxiety, when I return to working full time after four days of part-time sickliness. I'm not trying to talk myself into feeling anxious tomorrow, I'm just happy I'm not anxious today, whereas often I am anxious on Sundays. I'm treating today like a vacation day ( Read more... )

I thought about it but I didn't write about it,

of course a major aspect of 2021 was that Dax passed.

But that's why I'm giving $$$ to a Detroit animal shelter, and now also why I'm giving $$$ to PETA for their abused dog rescue program, and why I will give my home to dogs again.

Dax taught me how to love dogs, and I will never forget.

T ... T ... I know ... Dax was so much more of a personality than Lucy was ( Read more... )

Having returned from lunch, I was reading a book, but also wondered whether there was anything interesting on Amazon Prime, because I have access to that here, but not at the house ( Read more... )

I did finish a book, but not the one I expected, maybe I'll tell y'all about it tomorrow, and now I'm reading another book, but not on a schedule, but I am finishing some books :-) It's important to me to finish some books, but also important to me to have 800 unfinished books LOL ( Read more... )

I talked with Ben about Dax, told him about how I fell apart so painfully last weekend with B, spoke about being there aside Dax as he passed,

this time I didn't fall apart, which isn't necessarily a good thing, except I know Dax would want me to be happy/pappy,

For the rest of my life I will be able to cry upon demand, that wasn't a thing before

After seeing B on Saturday evening, with plenty of snuggles and me having a big sobbing cry over Dax, we2 joined again on Sunday for me to see his new home and for him to visit with sickly T at the house ( Read more... )

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"What are pets if not fun packaged as electricity flowing through meat?"

-- Sir Ben